IMPORTANT NOTE: This poem is literally fictional and not about anyone I know or don’t know; it’s just a made-up scenario.
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somewhere there’s a man who’s not happy. he thinks he is, but he isn’t. he has a lovely home and his girlfriend of a few years lives in it with him and they have many happy days together and everything is all happy and smiling and it doesn’t matter that he can’t stop thinking about that one woman he called crazy and that he only ever feels alive when he’s daydreaming about kissing her and that all the street lights look like they’re bleeding but oh look at our lovely photos from our vacation on that island what was that dish you ordered that one night and she laughed bc she never knew he liked anything like that yes honey i’ve always liked pasta he said but i guess you didn’t think about it and he tries not to think about that one night that they were arguing and she yelled another guy’s name at him and he tries not to think about that one woman who smiled at him all the time before and he wanted to take the risk and maybe get her phone number even though it felt wrong so he just does what he always does and posts another pic of him and his girlfriend (“I can’t believe it’s been this long with you and maybe many more to come you’re the only one I want to do life with”) bc she gets frustrated when he doesn’t post them enough (“they’ll think we’re having issues or something”) he got what he wanted and what his parents wanted for him — this white picket fenced in valentine dream world where no one ever worries about that woman who was having problems because she was alone she’s just a psycho anyway even though she said that to him that day about knowing he was unhappy and he knew it was true but he just told her to go get a life and now he feels bad about it but he’ll marry his girlfriend and they will probably have a few kids and hate each other in a few years and the kids will see that but they will have money for college and isn’t the world so great and isn’t everything so lovely the streetlights are bleeding again he thinks as he stares out the window, hoping to the see someone else but he knows he’s just some guy and it will all be fine
but soon it is morning he is still standing at the window and he decides not to marry his girlfriend and in fact decides to break up with her because she cheats on him and he’s tired of it so he decides he has control over his life and finds the woman who he told was crazy and ends up marrying her and they live happily ever after the end have a good night.
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Talk soon.
-Josee