So, I’m at a crossroads.
I have become so much happier lately after purchasing a new vehicle and after being able to dress more like what I’m comfortable with (a bit gothier than usual). I know that sounds kind of immature, but it just is what it is. (I spent a while unable to dress how I wanted to for a few different reasons.) However, I still have a remaining emptiness.
Don’t get me wrong; I’m so grateful for how my life is now. I am in such a better place than I was just months before. I could not imagine life getting much better than it was back in December and January, but I knew that it had to.
I remember being terrified at that point, and now that time of my life feels almost fictional.
I’ve been watching things about manifesting, law of assumption, etc. I love things like that because all of the power rests within you. There is no way for someone on the outside to manipulate your future unless you just let them. I used to be afraid of black magic, but my cousin helped me a lot with that because she basically said, “No, you just don’t believe in it. That’s the key to avoiding it.” This same cousin helped me to express myself when I was a teenager. She always encouraged me to stand up for myself and be true to myself, and that is something I am reflecting on a lot lately now that I am in my thirties. It’s almost like I am checking in on myself after all of these years have passed.
And what I’ve found is that I am a bit cloudy on what I want this blog to be moving forward. I wanted it to just be a music and media blog before, but now I’m not so sure. There are more things that I would like to talk about, and if I just talk about music, movies, and books, I feel like I’m not fully expressing myself on this blog the way that I’m meant to.
There is more that I’m meant to do, so I will try to figure out what that is and then accomplish it. And not just for blog content.
I am still going to post regularly on here. I’m not going anywhere. I cannot quit this blog. However, I do feel that it needs to grow into more than it is, so that’s what I’m going to try to do.
I know this is more like a diary entry, but I really don’t mind some of my articles reading that way. At least it’s authentic.
Talk soon! :)
-Josee