I’ve had a lot of issues lately with motivation to do anything. Obviously, I’ve been working on this blog a little more consistently, so that’s good. However, I still am having issues balancing that with other parts of my life. Mostly, I feel tired quite a lot, with short flashes of energy in between.
This has been something I’ve noticed a lot of people talking about on social media. And it seems to be more often than it used to be. I’m not sure if maybe this is due to just me being tuned to that particular pattern or not or if there has been an actual uptick in people just being tired and unmotivated.
I’ve seen a variety of advice about it. I’ve seen one side that seems to act like you should just embrace not having motivation and another side that says you should ramp up and try to focus on your health. I think both can be true at various moments, but I don’t think either one is exclusively true all the time.
I tried ramping up things nearer the beginning of summer, and I experienced setbacks. It was almost like putting more attention on my health just caused problems for me. I started summertime with all of this energy to do different things, but I have gotten more and more tired and dissatisfied with life in general and have stopped wanting to put effort into things that will just cause issues and open up more possibility for difficulty. I’m starting to understand that my life is probably just how it is going to be; it’s not necessarily a bad thing, but it’s something I’m trying to accept. I might be totally wrong, and I don’t want anyone reading this to get discouraged about their own life. I am just talking about my experience only.
I try to just do what is absolutely necessary chore-wise. I end up lounging around more than I would like, but I still find that I can only accomplish a certain amount of things in a day right now without being totally exhausted and crashing the next day all day long. Emotionally, I feel totally weighed down because it all feels so pointless.
So, what does this mean? Do I keep trying to drive forward and ramp up how much work I do and how strict my routine is, or do I just let things be? I am waking up later than I would like even when I set an alarm. I find that making choices for health is just costing me more and causing other issues. I’m not meeting any new people even though I have become more open to being social. If I were to talk to friends about this, they would just think I am being negative and not “getting enough perspective” or something. So, I guess this is it.
Don’t get me wrong. I’m not saying just sit down and stop putting in effort in any kind of way. I am still seeking out energy and positivity. However, I’m saying that unless I specifically feel called to do something, I’m not going to pursue it. I’m just tired, and that’s all there is to it.
Talk soon.
-Josee